Well I guess to start out I was saved when I was 7 years old. I’ve gone to church all my life, I can’t remember a time in my life I didn’t go, sun, rain, or snow……..we went. I never really understood why we went to church, I mean, yeah I learned about God, but what I always looked forward to was seeing my friends, or having fun. It was never about God , its always been about me, which it never should be about you. God should always be number 1 in your life. Nobody, and I mean nobody, should be above God. Hey now I’ll tell you the truth, He hasn’t always been first in my life. He actually hasn’t really been first very much at all, which is something I’ve been trying to work on. One thing that I really enjoy doing is writing, I love it, writing poetry, book reports ( I know weird) but I like making stuff that’s boring, interesting to the reader. So what I want to be when I grow up is a writer (unless God changes my mind, which I really hope He doesn’t). I don’t know when, or how its going to happen, but I know God will help me, and lead me through pursuing my dream.
One thing I really wanted to let all you out there reading this know is, God loves you and always will. I know sometimes we teens feel like no one out there understands us, or loves us, but believe me when I say no matter what you go through in life, no matter who hurts you, or leaves you, God is always there, to grab your hand and put you in his arms, and tell you everything’s gonna be alright. Something I’ve always struggled with is feeling loved. I know there are so many out there that love me, and care for me, but I never really could let myself feel it. I guess I always thought love came from a boyfriend, or husband, but now I know that Gods love is the only love you need. Whatever happens I know God should be first in my life, He should and I hope will always be your number one, and mine. I know sometimes it seems God doesn’t hear you when you pray, and I felt that oh so many times, and its so hard when you pray and you pray, and it feels like no ones listening, but always remember He’s listening, He’s hearing every word you say. Sometimes you don’t always get an answer, or an answer you want, but its only because He knows what’s best for you, and wants what’s best for you.
2011 Update – Crystal just completed her first year at Clear Creek Baptist Bible College in pursuit of a degree in Missions. The summer of 2011 she traveled with Choose Life Ministries and this fall, 2011, she will be returning to Clear Creek for her third semester.